Getting older sucks!

Tomorrow is my birthday. I am not going to say how old I will be, its not old but lets just say I am not happy about it. It used to be when I was a kid I would so look forward to birthdays. The presents were fun and life was simple. Now it just seems like another day, I mean sure I could buy myself some cool gift, but it will not achieve what I really want. I feel at this age that I have so much more to accomplish and do. I feel I should be doing more not just for myself but others. I don't hate my job, but I could be happier doing other things, I just am not sure what?!


I have so many interests and only the lucky get paid to play around with their hobbies. I have this strong desire to help others and in turn I feel it will make me happy, but there is so much I just don't know what to tackle first. Volunteering at soup kitchens, giving money to the poor and homeless, helping to build houses. I feel I need to travel to other places and help. Alas I really don't have the money or means to do all these things. So it depresses me that all I can do is donate what little I have and try and go with life feeling lucky that I have what I do.


So yet for another year happy birthday to me, bleh......